a person who was used to understand and accept all of their emotions and thoughts will obviously be nettled by the moment, when their brain will get tired of processing this raft of worries; will start to cut all of them out from the memory, as soon as you’ll calm down or go to sleep. from now on they won’t live longer than a couple of hours, what patently does not help you in making things clear. it’s an abrupt stab, an impulse, immediately drowning in these thoughts that it brought by its own. there’s a feeling left in your head, an aftertaste, but not the reason, neither the very thought.

if all the time before there was a big clump that, even if with giant effort, but you could detangle and figure out what was behind, arrange everything, then now there’s only pitch black darkness, white noise, frost and downpour. you’re simply scared of the unknown, but you do feel that this darkness is infinite, no matter where you’ll go. there never ’ll be support

big problem is, because you can’t discover things, they will be hoarded and affect your peace, you can’t distinguish them because of lack of knowledge about this certain feeling, you are not used to notice it and its roots, therefore you realize that something’s off only when you’re already drowning. things that could help you are too extreme, that will hurt not only you some other way, but also anyone who happen to be cause of your overthinking. they did nothing wrong, but your brain, full of stress and bothers, will consider any touching word as an assault
by time that sleet from inside of your mind will leak onto your skin, lay as a veil on your sight and block your breath, and you would do nothing about it